Reassure Me

Reassure me with your smile

That the hurt is now gone

And what has been tormenting me

Is not really an issue of tomorrow?

I am playing with my mind obviously

And I’m looking for answers where

None of them is there for me,

You see I’m asking for your reassurance

That you are not the worst that ever happened to me

Loving you in such a fruitless way,

Loving you desperately because

I wanted you to be good in your own self

I desired for your commitment and support

And yet I gained only negligence and lies

Who cares for someone who is really loving you?

Reassure me with your hands holding mine

You know, the way lovers do

Spreading the warmth of their touch to each other

Making them understand that their love is real

Not a figment of my imagination,

Or a fairytale gone bad

Oh my Gosh, I’m shattered to pieces

Because you keep playing games with my mind

Knowing that there will never be another love

Like mine, to you or me,

Fuck, there will never be a treason cell opened

For keeping me slave to your love that I desired.

Reassure me with your kiss and sweet talk

The one that lovers share between the sheets

When they’re there for each other

Looking deep into their eyes

And feeling the sparkle of their souls

Ignite to connect them to the Universe

And beyond, if you know what I mean

Hold me tight, hold me close

And don’t even become the Monster

That devours every breath that I take, no,

Just be the Man who loves his Woman

From the heart and from the soul

Because he’s real to himself first

And then to the people he loves.

If I’m bullshitting you, reassure me,

Because silence speaks louder than words

I’m not asking for promises,

I’m not begging for a lie or another lie

I only want you to reassure me

That life can go on despite the exhaustion

And the let down in a conflicting relationship,

I can frankly say

That I don’t care about you anymore

Simple as that, yes I don’ t spare a thought

As long as you cannot ease my soul

And you cannot heal my aching heart

For all the hardships I’ve went through,

For better or for worse

Who’s to say, I’m not a prophet

Nothing but a simple human being

Longing for sharing the love I feel inside

With someone who’s loving me.

So please come on and reassure me

Before I lose my mind,

Or go insane because you never loved me enough

Or you never loved me for real

Ah… did you?

© Marialena, 27.02.2019 (shredding the pieces to one self…)